Someday you will read this and understand why Grammy was the way she was. I can see it in your eyes today that you don’t understand. You desire for Grammy to be all fun and games and always giving in to your every whim. You see even as tiny babies I didn’t give in to you. I love you too much for that. It is my desire that some day you will be such bright and shining stars reflecting the love of the Savior that you are a wonderful addition to His kingdom and bring many with you.
I promise you that I do love you…more than life. My tears have often been prayed to my Savior for your salvation and for your obedient lives to Him. I promise that when you refuse to take a nap, I’ll make you…because you need one whether you know it or not. I promise that when you abuse your mama and daddy that I will reprimand you. You are not God and the fact that they don’t give in to your worship is your first step to realizing that and that you need a Savior much bigger and more able to meet your needs than you ever will be. I promise that when you disobey me I will be swift and final with your rebuke. You must learn to obey the authorities in your life. This is why our world is in the state it is in today. Even grown ups must learn to obey someone…and many don’t…and we all suffer.
So, yes, I do love you…and we will have tickle fights. I will read you books because TV will suck your brain cells out of your head and especially what they have on today for children’s shows. Will we watch movies together? Yes. But be prepared for lessons along the way of the truth and untruth of what you are watching. I will not allow you to believe lies as much as it is in my ability to keep you from them. I will play good music for you…about Jesus…from the Great Composers…worship music…fun music…because to love music is a wonderful part of life.
Right now…Grammy is the bad guy most of the time. That’s okay. It’s because I love you too much to allow you to stay babies and not grow or mature or call out the best in you. You have abilities far beyond who you now desire to be…and I will call out your best qualities. You will get tired of hearing me say the same things over and over because you didn’t listen the first time. I will not nag…I will teach and train and teach and train. Come to think of it that’s why your mama or papa are who they are today. I spent endless hours training and they have become wonderful people who love Jesus. Learn to listen…you’ll be listening the rest of your lives. Learn to be kind and think of others before yourself. Learn to tell yourself “no” so others don’t have to. Learn to distinguish between good, better and best…and choose the best.
I love you little ones…and even when it seems like Grammy’s the big meany…know my heart.